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    Monday, August 15, 2005

    Everything is Everything

    I've been a little bummed lately so I've been following the advice of my beloved maternal grandmother: If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say nothing at all. My sister who I grew up with - you know the one that never grew up? Well anyway, she's moving out of state. I'm happy for her. The thing is she is a little irresponsible and I worry about her children. And not for nothing, I have grown so attached to them; in fact, my oldest niece is like my daughter. I've been a surrogate mother to her and have taken care of her for most of her 12 years. She's staying with me for the summer - well at least until next week, when they pack up and leave. It's going to seem very strange without her around. I feel like I'm losing my own child. It's not just my worry, but my mother is driving me friggin nuts. Her worries on top of mines got a sister all messed up. So, I've been spending as much time with my nieces and nephews as I can. I guess I'll be the only one left here in Jersey to listen to my mother bitch and moan. Oh well, maybe I'll move out of state - change my blog to FL Diva Girl, naw...maybe PA Diva Girl, GA Diva Girl -NOPE and NOPE! Hmmm how about MO Diva Girl. It's all dumb; I am and always will be a true to life Jersey Chick. Na'mean? What? Word up? Whaaaaateeeeeever! LOL

    But on a serious note, you know how when you feel crabapplish, and no - not PMS crabapplish, but just grumpy, irritable, cranky and just plain ole bitchy? You know how sometimes the right music can make you feel much better. My Lauryn Hill CD -The MisEducation of Lauryn Hill does that for me. That CD is pure genius. I know it's been picked apart and talked about extensively before, but damn, this is my all-time favorite CD. I've never gotten sick of it. Lost One, where she talks about how karma is a bitch, I Used To Love him - Oh the heartbreak ~*~*~ I chose a road of passion and pain ~*~*~ Sacrificed too much and waited in vain~*~*~ Gave up my power ceased being queen~*~*~ Addicted to love like the drug of a fiend
    ~*~*~ I'm telling you this CD is a classic and covers just about every range of emotion there is to experience. Me and my girls made up this corny little thing where we ask each other from time to time, "What is your Lauryn mood"? And the response could be, "I'm feeling, 'Nothing Even Matters' today (self explanatory)." Or, 'Damn 'Every Ghetto, Every City' (meaning, same crap, different day)". For the past couple of days, my Lauryn mood has been:

    Everything Is Everything

    Everything is everything
    What is meant to be, will be
    After winter, must come spring
    Change, it comes eventually

    I wrote these words for everyone
    Who struggles in their youth
    Who won't accept deception
    Instead of what is truth
    It seems we lose the game,
    Before we even start to play
    Who made these rules? We're so confused
    Easily led astray
    Let me tell ya that
    Everything is everything
    Everything is everything
    After winter, must come spring
    Everything is everything

    I philosophy
    Possibly speak tongues
    Beat drum, Abyssinian, street Baptist
    Rap this in fine linen
    From the beginning
    My practice extending across the atlas
    I begat this
    Flippin' in the ghetto on a dirty mattress
    You can't match this rapper / actress
    More powerful than two Cleopatras
    Bomb graffiti on the tomb of Nefertiti
    MCs ain't ready to take it to the Serengeti
    My rhymes is heavy like the mind of Sister Betty
    L. Boogie spars with stars and constellations
    Then came down for a little conversation
    Adjacent to the king, fear no human being
    Roll with cherubims to Nassau Coliseum
    Now hear this mixture
    Where hip hop meets scripture
    Develop a negative into a positive picture

    Now, everything is everything
    What is meant to be, will be
    After winter, must come spring
    Change, it comes eventually

    Sometimes it seems
    We'll touch that dream
    But things come slow or not at all
    And the ones on top, won't make it stop
    So convinced that they might fall
    Let's love ourselves then we can't fail
    To make a better situation
    Tomorrow, our seeds will grow
    All we need is dedication

    Let me tell ya that,
    Everything is everything
    Everything is everything
    After winter, must come spring
    Everything is everything

    Everything is everything
    What is meant to be, will be
    After winter, must come spring
    Change, it comes eventually


    At 8/15/2005 10:21 PM, Blogger Bullet Proof Diva said...

    people think I am exaggerating, but I am straight up serious when I say that CD changed.my.life.

    I still spin it regularly, and I will never ever ever tire of it!


    I hope you feel better soon, there are some days when I just feel like I am in a rut of bad emotions, but thankfully I get through it. Try to take some time to pamper yourself, that is what us divas do, nahmean!?


    At 8/16/2005 2:13 PM, Blogger JamaicanQueen said...

    I knew I liked you. I love me some Lauren. I'm still hating cause of your site tho. But cheer up love, the kids will be back to tear up your house soon.


    At 8/16/2005 9:57 PM, Blogger YouToldHarpoTaBeatMe said...

    X Factor and Lost Ones were my JOINTs!! I couldn't get past "I keep letting you back in". It reminded me of a relationship that I had a hard time walking away from. Caller ID and garages are 2 of the greatest inventions known to man. LoL


    At 8/17/2005 2:36 PM, Blogger Brotha Buck said...

    Anything Lauren Hill just kinda takes me to a higher level.Yes, change, it comes eventually.

    *blogger formerly known as Devas*


    At 8/18/2005 1:54 AM, Blogger NjDivaGirl said...

    ~Bullet....me and my friends discuss this endlessly. Lauryn is too DEEP for her own good...LOL Right now I am really feeling Mariah Carey's CD.

    ~JamaicanQueen...why you hatin? LOL

    ~YouToldHarpoTaBeatMe You ain't never lied about those two things!

    ~Brotha Buck, yep change does come...never thought I was one to be resistent to change until now. Oh well, you live and learn.


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