Everything is Everything

I've been a little bummed lately so I've been following the advice of my beloved maternal grandmother: If you don't have anything nice to say, then don't say nothing at all. My sister who I grew up with - you know the one that never grew up? Well anyway, she's moving out of state. I'm happy for her. The thing is she is a little irresponsible and I worry about her children. And not for nothing, I have grown so attached to them; in fact, my oldest niece is like my daughter. I've been a surrogate mother to her and have taken care of her for most of her 12 years. She's staying with me for the summer - well at least until next week, when they pack up and leave. It's going to seem very strange without her around. I feel like I'm losing my own child. It's not just my worry, but my mother is driving me friggin nuts. Her worries on top of mines got a sister all messed up. So, I've been spending as much time with my nieces and nephews as I can. I guess I'll be the only one left here in Jersey to listen to my mother bitch and moan. Oh well, maybe I'll move out of state - change my blog to FL Diva Girl, naw...maybe PA Diva Girl, GA Diva Girl -NOPE and NOPE! Hmmm how about MO Diva Girl. It's all dumb; I am and always will be a true to life Jersey Chick. Na'mean? What? Word up? Whaaaaateeeeeever! LOL

But on a serious note, you know how when you feel crabapplish, and no - not PMS crabapplish, but just grumpy, irritable, cranky and just plain ole bitchy? You know how sometimes the right music can make you feel much better. My Lauryn Hill CD -The MisEducation of Lauryn Hill does that for me. That CD is pure genius. I know it's been picked apart and talked about extensively before, but damn, this is my all-time favorite CD. I've never gotten sick of it. Lost One, where she talks about how karma is a bitch, I Used To Love him - Oh the heartbreak ~*~*~ I chose a road of passion and pain ~*~*~ Sacrificed too much and waited in vain~*~*~ Gave up my power ceased being queen~*~*~ Addicted to love like the drug of a fiend~*~*~ I'm telling you this CD is a classic and covers just about every range of emotion there is to experience. Me and my girls made up this corny little thing where we ask each other from time to time, "What is your Lauryn mood"? And the response could be, "I'm feeling, 'Nothing Even Matters' today (self explanatory)." Or, 'Damn 'Every Ghetto, Every City' (meaning, same crap, different day)". For the past couple of days, my Lauryn mood has been:

Everything Is Everything

Everything is everything
What is meant to be, will be
After winter, must come spring
Change, it comes eventually

I wrote these words for everyone
Who struggles in their youth
Who won't accept deception
Instead of what is truth
It seems we lose the game,
Before we even start to play
Who made these rules? We're so confused
Easily led astray
Let me tell ya that
Everything is everything
Everything is everything
After winter, must come spring
Everything is everything

I philosophy
Possibly speak tongues
Beat drum, Abyssinian, street Baptist
Rap this in fine linen
From the beginning
My practice extending across the atlas
I begat this
Flippin' in the ghetto on a dirty mattress
You can't match this rapper / actress
More powerful than two Cleopatras
Bomb graffiti on the tomb of Nefertiti
MCs ain't ready to take it to the Serengeti
My rhymes is heavy like the mind of Sister Betty
L. Boogie spars with stars and constellations
Then came down for a little conversation
Adjacent to the king, fear no human being
Roll with cherubims to Nassau Coliseum
Now hear this mixture
Where hip hop meets scripture
Develop a negative into a positive picture

Now, everything is everything
What is meant to be, will be
After winter, must come spring
Change, it comes eventually

Sometimes it seems
We'll touch that dream
But things come slow or not at all
And the ones on top, won't make it stop
So convinced that they might fall
Let's love ourselves then we can't fail
To make a better situation
Tomorrow, our seeds will grow
All we need is dedication

Let me tell ya that,
Everything is everything
Everything is everything
After winter, must come spring
Everything is everything

Everything is everything
What is meant to be, will be
After winter, must come spring
Change, it comes eventually